Hopefully a stronger version of myself.
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You’ve come so far. WE’VE COME SO FAR. And I know for sure that I’ve wasted everything. I’m sorry I can no longer undo my mistakes and make up for it. I’m sorry if I damaged you and wreck you. I’m sorry if I wasn’t true. I know a sorry will never be enough & love as well will never be enough for you to forgive me. I can wait for how long it takes for you to forgive me. I wish I was better for you and now all I can do is hope and pray that you end up with someone worthy of you. You deserve so much more than me. You deserve all the love in the world. You deserve the better version of me that I can’t find. I woke up this morning and wished I hadn’t waken up. I wish I just died in my sleep so I wouldn’t wake up and witness your pain. I wanna hold you and hug you and how I wish that every touch would take all the pain away but it wouldn’t. You don’t know how it takes everything in me not to text you. But I’m afraid that I might only hurt you even more. I wanted to tell you about it before but I was afraid. Cause I was very unsure of what I’m feeling. I was blinded bout how he made me feel. There were nights where I stayed up wishing you were the one who was making me feel that way. Yung maiiyak nalang ako kase yung mga pinaparamdam nya sakin ikaw nagpaparamdam dati pero hindi mona napaparamdam. Yung mga nights na umiiyak ako kay Jaz and sinasabe ko na sana ikaw nalang nagpaparamdam sakin nun. It’s like having the right things to do and the right person. He did what I wanted you to do, and it was really hard cause I wish you were the one doing that. Cause I know you were the right person. Ikaw lang naman yung pinangarap ko nung una palang. Ikaw lang naman yung pinagtanggol ko sa parents ko and minahal ko ng ganito. I asked for space. Cause naniniwala ko na someday mababalik pa eh. Na maybe someday matatama natin lahat ng pagkakamali. But I was wrong for asking for space and still having to talk to him. I was very wrong. I’m sorry. The last time we got back together the spark was there but every time we get into a fight all the pain in the past keeps coming back and I know you felt the same way. That’s when I figured it would take time to bring it back to the way it was from the start. And now, malabo nang mabalik pa tayo sa date. At kasalanan ko lahat yon. All the promises I made will still be kept. I will wait for you, no matter how long it takes. You’re the only one I dream about spending my lifetime with, to have kids with. I will still love you from a far, watching you from a distance only not to annoy you. I’ll watch you fall in love with someone else. And I’ll pray that she wouldn’t do the same mistake I did. You’re a very special guy and I will regret forever what I have done. I love you, and I will continue loving you even if that means letting you go completely and keeping myself away from you. I love you and I’ll be here if you need me. I will always be here waiting. Goodbye my one true lo
Happiness that shows
If the tree doesn’t like you, flirt with it 🌴😂
I feel the heat
Summer Bliss ☀ Later on my blog: itslouieang.blogspot.com 😊